In none of the photos or videos did I see a sign that read, "Je suis Juif" ("I am a Jew").
Did I not look hard enough?
Did I miss something?
Considering that the second attack the day after the Charlie murders happened in a Jewish neighborhood, in a place where Jews were gathered to prepare for the Sabbath, I can only deduce that these people were singled out not for saying or writing anything, but simply for BEING who and what they were.
And while my views on non-violence and solidarity are about as universalist as they can be, I cannot help but wonder where the signs in support of the Jews of Paris were on Sunday.
Maybe I missed them.
If they were there, the media chose not to show them.
If they weren't there, well... I don't know which is worse at this point.
I feel conflicting realizations and I suppose that is part of being who and what I am.
On Sunday night, after the rally, Israeli president Netanyahu entered the Great Synagogue of Paris and was greeted by raucous cheers by those inside. His French counterpart, accompanying him, was not.
President Netanyahu has recently made multiple remarks directed at French Jews, saying in effect, "your country is Israel, so move to Israel."
So things got a little odd when those in attendance greeted him, and then spontaneously broke out into song -- and sang the French national anthem, La Marseillaise. Pundits on all sides called it embarrassing for both leaders, and some accused French Jews of being naive. Many of France's Jews -- over 7,000 -- have made aliyah (moved to Israel) in 2014 alone and more are planning to follow suit.
Maybe you can be Charlie, unless you're also Jewish. Then maybe not so much. I honestly don't know.
I have a lot to sort out here, but mostly today I feel ambivalent and terribly sad and just plain uneasy about it all.